Mr. Spock

 Disappointed tonight, won't go into the reasons (this time time...hahah), but I do need to start focusing my energy in different directions...sow seeds that reap good fruit. It's interesting, at this point in my life I don't fear death, I fear life. I owe a serious debt of gratitude to my Mom's of course for the "gift" of life, a chance, and also a debt to my worn out Guardian Angel for all those narrow escapes. Unfortunately, even given this life to live, I made piss poor choices, to the point where today I have a very hard time in my efforts to make meaningful choices...eat, shit, sleep, repeat...that's all I've got.

Haven't listened to some good old fashioned Dissecting Table in a while

Discharge does it right every time (except when they went hair metal there for a while)

Was definitely keen on hard drug abuse off and on in the 90s, but dope like heroin never got my like the bottle did. I was fascinated with shooting anything up though...heroin of course, fucking speed, coke, pharmaceuticals and any combination thereof.  I shouldn't be alive today. Thought I was a goner for sure when I rolled  my truck, but nope...

So why the fuck am I alive? Hahah!

Recreational Bulldozing

Sent out several texts today, as I have the Sunday evening blues, and got zero replies. I'm chalking it up to a sign from God, just waiting on the Angel to show up and clarify what to do next. For now, I've decided do a quick post, to satisfy that need for contact...kind of a message in a bottle kind of thing.

"The fourth angel poured out his bowl on the sun, and the sun was allowed to scorch people with fire." The Apocalypse of John 16:8

I know this is probably about somewhere else in the Midwest (he mentions Wisconsin) but it may as well be set here on the high plains of NoWhere Kansas.

Is it okay to have a bit of a crush on the gal singing in this one, not sure if that's polite to say anymore? Easy on the eyes, haunting voice and incredible talent. Dig the clarinet solo too. Clarinet was the instrument I was assigned to in junior high...I wanted the saxophone. You kinda get what you get in life sometimes, don't ya?

Rad fan made vid of the only song I know by Soulfly.

This song put Ministry on the map for me in '92...would've never heard about it but because Gibby Haynes was on vocals.

Happy Monday y'all (image "borrowed" from Sean @ Selfish Few)!

Circumstances & Issues

Scum layer or non-floating waste? Hmmm...I think at times I have been both. Interestingly enough, of the 96 views this blogs has had in the last week, 78 were from Hong Kong. It was like that with Singapore for a while there too, getting tons of hits, If someone from Hong Kong (or a HK VPN address) would leave a comment it would sooth my paranoid mind that says, something is afoot when there's that many hits from just one location. Please?

Let's all sing along :) As friends of Bill W. say, fake it till you make it...hahah.

Always nice to visit my cousin's little girl Brooklyn!

This goes out to Brook and to all the kiddos out there...Sesame Street was huge for me as a kiddo myself. Are they still making new episodes or do we have to satisfy that need through reruns?

I'm a bit nutty, sad and sketched at times, but I know folks who blur insane and evil. Perhaps my favorite song off this album.

Hand knitted wool socks thanx to Ellen Magnolia!

SPK's Wars of Islam...what's there to say? This "group", in all the years I've been listening to them, never cease to amaze me...top tier OG Industrial music at level that has been emulated for a long time.

I've been sitting on this post for a while, doing nothing really with it and it's been almost a month since my last post. Let's just say I've got a lot on my mind and so I will leave you with a very nice live recording of Witching Hour